Saturday, June 13, 2009

In Another World

Lately I've been thinking about the movie, Good Morning Vietnam... there's a scene in the movie where Robin Williams is talking with a higher ranking soldier (who's known for his lack of sense of humor and is not extremely well-liked). Robin, as Adrian Cronauer, says this: (and you can picture Robin just rattling this off)

[Lt. Steven Hauk uses army jargon to refer to a press conference to be given by former Vice President Nixon]
Adrian Cronauer: "Excuse me sir, seeing that the V.P. is such a V.I.P, shouldn't we keep the P.C. on the Q.T.? 'Cause if it leaks to the V.C he could end up M.I.A., and then we'd all be put on K.P."
here's the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6UqqjEeWP9Y

I have always loved that scene... it left the other guy speechless and everyone else laughing.

Well, I kinda feel like I've been living in the acronym world... many times nurse and doctors will refer to something with initials and I'm extremely puzzled. So I jotted a few down (these are just a few):

UAMS - University of Arkansas for Medical Sciences (that one wasn't hard)
NST - Non-Stress Test (the monitor they hook up 2x a week for about 30 minutes to track Adalynn's heartbeat and to see if I'm contracting)
COWs - Computer on Wheels (the nurse told me they had to be careful how they said this one! :))
LOF - Leakage of Fluid
VB - Vaginal Bleeding
HA - Headache (now that's funny...and not usually a laughing matter)
CONTX - Contractions
Q - Every (like Qday is everyday)
SCD - Sequential Compression Devices (the leg wraps that chase blood clots away)
PROM - Pre-mature Rupture of Membranes (this is when the water breaks)

I was very confused on this last one... they talked several days about my PROM. I kept thinking they were talking about some local kids going to a dance! I finally asked someone... :) I've come to realize that the medical world is an amazing place... so much so that they create their own language! I suppose that it would take forever to write reports or talk to each other if they didn't have intials for everything. Now, if I just had an interpreter!

Today was a pretty low key day, medically. They did do another NST (see above) and Adalynn tracked great! Her heartrate stays in the low 140's. She still gets the hiccups occasionally and likes to dance in my belly after I drink apple juice. Some doctors came in and reported that I'm on my 25th day. That hit me like a ton of bricks. Has it really been that long? Unreal.

I do get a lot of questions asking if I'm "bored" or "stir crazy." Which, remarkably, I can honestly answer "no"! I try so hard to keep my mind pre-occupied--computer stuff, reading, baseball on TV or computer, quick trips outside, thank you cards, lots of phone calls, emails, texts and facebook stuff. It doesn't sound like much, but it really does fill the day! Reflecting on this... I think if I was in the hospital for just me, I would probably would go nuts. But knowing that this is for the good of our little girl... it's all worth it. I can sit on my rear end and behave for that "precious prize"! I have the rest of my life to go back to my Martha tendencies... but I DO think the Lord did this to show me how to be a Mary. ("I am the Lord's servant," Mary said, "may it be as you said." Luke 1:38)

A big event today... the Hog baseball team won their first game against Cal-State Fullerton in the College World Series! Mom and I had a lot of fun to watching that--knowing that my dad as well as Cindy & Steve Morgan were there. And I remembered something... the last time the Hogs were in the World Series, was when I was in the hospital for a P.E. (more acronyms) or pulmonary embolism/blood clot in 2004. I remember distinctly asking the nurse if she could bring my sleeping pill in another couple of hours because I needed to see the end of the game! Hmmmm... don't think I'd like to be hospitalized again, but would sure love to see the Hogs victorious!

SLFN (So Long For Now), TTFN (Ta Ta For Now), LYD (Love You Dearly), UT (Until Tomorrow) and WPS (WOO PIG SOOIE!)

K.L.O. and A.M.O.

Friday, June 12, 2009

The big and little joys...

While sitting here incubating in Little Rock, "being still and knowing he's God," AND trying to keep my mind occupied at all times... I have come to appreciate a bunch of little (and not so little joys). Some examples:

I have come to appreciate...
... the first sip of coffee in the morning
... watching baseball on the computer (Hogs and Cardinals)
... Oatmeal Peanut Butter Chocolate Chip cookies
... hugs from my four boys
... "snail mail" love
... holding my husband's hand
... check up texts/emails/facebook posts from friends and family
... fun gifts and treats to brighten the day
... aromatherapy within a hospital room
... Redhawk/Dirtbag baseball and Crist's basketball updates via text
... the fact that my family is being WELL fed at home (thank you so much Apples & Community Group!)
... mysterious house cleaners
... my Aunt Pat--her gift of hospitality and being a great laundry fairy
... scriptures that truly are the living Word and just come alive!
... my mom and dad
... my mother and father-in-law
... calls from Germany
... feeling Adalynn do her dances in my belly
... feeling Adalynn's hiccups
... great check-ups
... the fact that we will meet Adalynn within 2 weeks!

These are just a selection... you really have time to think and learn to appreciate all those things that were once taken for granted. I pray this time changes me forever. I have certainly learned a lot.

On another note, Mom, Crist and Ty are here in Little Rock this weekend (YEAH!). They drove down in a HUGE storm all the way from NWA--like the bright red kind on weather.com. Mom said it was certainly "white knuckle" driving! Dane and Tom are in Branson at a Redhawk baseball tournament. Their first game was at 12noon and they won! Following the game, they had a lot of time to relax. (Next game is tomorrow at 8am) So they went fishing with the Heffley family on Table Rock Lake. It just pleases me to no end to know that Tom got this time of relaxation. He has been so burdened for the last 3+ weeks. What a blessing that Kyle invited him to do one of Tom's all time favorite things... I just got a text around 8pm and they were still out on the lake! A vacation of sorts... and it's a good thing, because all the Olsen summer vacations were called off on account of Adalynn!

Here's Dane with a 2 1/2 lb hybrid bass he caught today. Look at the dimples on Dane's face. I would say he's having a great time!


And here is Tom with a Smallmouth Bass. He estimates that it was 18 inches long and 2 1/2 lbs. Tom sent this via text and said, "Thanks Kyle for taking us fishing!" (I second that!)

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Camera Shy

Well, we found out today that Adalynn does not take after her big brother Ty...

We had an ultrasound this morning and I got to see Adalynn for the first time in three weeks! When we were trying to get a view of her face, her arm was in the way the whole time. The Ultrasound Tech said, "She must be camera shy!" It was at that point that I thought that she wasn't anything like her big brother who seems to love the limelight. If it was Ty in that situation, he'd probably be grinning and winking at the camera!

Adalynn weighed in at 4 lbs. 6 oz.!! I can't believe she has grown that much in this short amount of time (She was a little over 3 lbs 3 weeks ago)! It must be the Vitamin Water (I'm still working on an endorsement). And the amniotic fluid was around 5 to 6 cubic centimeters! The last time we had an ultrasound, it was at 3, and average is from 10 to 12 cubic centimeters! I'm just thrilled that there is that much fluid in there! I'm assuming that it helps with keeping infection away. The doctor said after the water broke, that Adalynn would continue producing amniotic fluid by (this is kinda gross) going to the bathroom. She must be getting plenty of fluids.

Adalynn's heartbeat was at 142 and she had the hiccups the entire time we were in there! Oh, and they confirmed that she is a "she." :) I'm just amazed at how well Adalynn is doing. I wonder how much she will weigh in just two more weeks... I'm sure the bigger the better when she is actually born. Maybe she'll be released more quickly! I'm in awe of this little girl and how much she is already fighting!

When remembering the analogy of the marathon, I think we would be at the 15 to 16 mile mark. We're on the home stretch! But I can totally feel that this is the hardest part of this race, that's for sure. The newness has worn off and the finish line still seems so far away. A dear friend gave me some timely wisdom today (I couldn't sleep and she brought me to tears quite early this morning) that fits right into this marathon analogy. She pointed me to this scripture that just spoke to the very place that I'm at:

"For you are in need of ENDURANCE, so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what He has promised." Hebrews 10:36 (NAS)

Again, endurance and perseverance is needed--and I can't produce that myself. She went on to encourage me with this:

This where the endurance kicks in! And guess what? you DO NOT have to muster it up yourself, b/c Romans 15:5 clearly says that God Himself gives ENDURANCE and encouragement!!! Whoohoo! You WILL receive your precious "prize" and you WILL also receive what you need to endure the last half of the "sit"! He promises!

I can't tell you how this just spoke so CLEARLY to me! Thank you Buffy. Your timing was perfect, your wisdom spot on, and the love spoken through your words is very apparent. I'm truly, truly thankful. I hope you don't mind that I shared this wisdom in Adalynn's baby-blog-book. Thank you, my friend. This marathon is truly worth that "precious prize" at the finish line...

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

3 WEEKS?!

3 weeks today Adalynn and I have been at UAMS! AND I'm 32 weeks now! Can't believe it. Again, it's gone by fast and slow all at the same time. Today was kind of a melancholy day, for whatever reason. I wonder if strength just runs out after time... all the more reason to lean on Him, I know. But I think this emotional roller coaster was at a low point today...

But it all picked up when I had some visitors today! (Amazing how smiling and familiar faces can truly pick you up when you're down.) Aunt Pat (a.k.a. The Laundry Lady) came and sat with me for awhile. And then tonight, Cindy and Steve Morgan came by! It was SO nice to see them, and it gave me something to look forward to all day! This is a good segway to introduce Adalynn to her Aunt and Uncle.


Aunt Cindy is Tom's sister and I feel is the sister that I never had! She is probably one of the most godly, amazing women I've ever known. In fact, there are many times that I will get in a situation and ask myself, "What would Cindy do if this was happening to her?" You can't out-give Cindy... she will beat you to the punch. And you can ALWAYS count on her! Very, very loyal and very, very loving. If Cindy had a choice, she would be at every one of Crist, Dane and Ty's games--she is a sports nut AND she's crazy about her nephews! Cindy and Tom have had a special relationship since Tom came into this world. Cindy is (I think) 11 years older than Tom and was instrumental in helping out when he was born. Betty had health problems and needed lots of assistance. Cindy, of course, was there to help. I think Tom and Cindy have been close ever since. It's such a blessing that they live nearby (Farmington)!

Uncle Steve has been a part of Tom's life since he was a teenager. He is truly a BROTHER to him. Steve is another solid figure in all of our lives... He is a man of conviction, purpose and has such a presence in any room. He is a wonderful brother-in-law to both of us and an amazing Uncle to our boys. And like Cindy, you can always count on Steve. He works hard and plays just as hard...and he's the best to have around when you go on vacation! You can plan on a good time--in fact, we call him our CD or Camp Director.

Steve and Cindy have two beautiful daughters (Amberle & Chelsea). And they turned 21 years old today! Truly that is amazing--time has gone by so fast! I have so many fond memories of them growing up... Amberle & Chelsea are kinda surreal--like perfect in every way. (Adalynn, I hope you grow up to be JUST like them!!!)

Adalynn, I can't wait for you to meet your aunt, uncle and cousins. They are going to spoil you rotten, I'm afraid... but I can't think of a more loving environment to place you in! I guarantee they will be at every softball or volleyball game, dance recital or whatever you choose to do. They will be some of your biggest fans, I can promise you! You truly are SO blessed...

Here is a fun, red tin that Cindy & Steve brought... filled with everything I love and Cindy KNOWS how much I love red! What a treat!

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

We're Putting Out an APB!!!

Tom's planning to file a "police report" because we've had a break in! Well... the intruders didn't necessarily take anything, but they did happen to leave conspicuous notes (hand-written scriptures) and the house is mysteriously clean (and we certainly know that is not the norm).

So if anyone has any information regarding this break-in, we'd like to handle it accordingly.

(You guys are amazing... when are you going to figure out that we truly don't deserve all this "good will")

Please refer to previous post for scripture reference...

Closer to Knowing...

Well... Adalynn will be 32 weeks tonight at midnight. That is just plain hard to believe... Let's see, we've known we are pregnant for 16 weeks now! It really has gone by so fast and yet it seems like we've always known about Adalynn. Now I can't even imagine life without her...and I haven't even seen her face!

Our doctor came in bright and early this morning...and thankfully Tom was still here. Tom has a steel trap when it comes to listening to things... I forget every other word, it seems, but Tom can take it all in and actually understand it all! In fact, that's what he usually does... translates everything to English for me!

The doctor said that because now I'm at 32 weeks, they will deliver Adalynn if 1 of 3 things happen: 1. I get an infection or fever; 2. I go into labor; or 3. I start bleeding. If one of those happen, they will take Adalynn via C-section right away. Otherwise, they will wait two more weeks and then schedule a C-section (we are having a C-section because she is breech). He said that if they waited beyond 34 weeks, there is more of a risk of her getting an infection than if they went ahead a took her. In other words, without any amniotic fluid, momma can only really protect her up to that point.

It felt so good to talk to him. I think we had a good idea what would happen, but it was nice to have a concrete time frame. And to think that we will get to meet Adalynn in 2 weeks or so (or less)! Wow... is this really happening?! I do hope that she continues to incubate for another couple of weeks. Again, I would much rather her be in the "MICU" instead of the NICU!

Before the doctor left, he started talking with Crist and Ty and he warned/teased them that their lives were getting ready to change dramatically! (He has four boys and then a girl) He said that we'll be at the store and the boys will ask for something and Mom and Dad will say no. And then when Adalynn asks for something we'll say, "Sure! How many do you want?" Crist and Ty just sat there smiling...

The rest of today was pretty uneventful...until some friends from home/church visited! Laurie and Bill Nystrom stopped by, and of course had some more treats for us. One of the gifts was a super cute musical pillow that played "Jesus Loves Me." I put it up to my belly and Adalynn just hopped! It was good to see them and how nice that they would take time out of their busy schedule for ME!! (Thank you friends!)

You know... looking back, this whole journey has been so amazing... we are completely covered in prayer by so many (I can't even imagine that). We are completely taken care of here in Little Rock as well as at home! To think that at the very beginning I was upset that we were "inconvenienced" by this pregnancy... Now I KNOW that the Lord knew what He was doing by placing Adalynn in the midst of all this love. Thank you, Body of Christ!

"...God has combined the members of the body and has given greater honor to the parts that lacked it, so that there should be no division in the body, but that its parts should have equal concern for each other. If one part suffers, every part suffers with it; if one part is honored, every part rejoices with it. Now you are the body of Christ, and each one of you is a part of it." (1 Corin. 12: 24b-27)

Monday, June 8, 2009

Cookies and Cards

Okay... I believe that Oatmeal Peanut Butter Chocolate Chip Cookies (found in Fellowship's first cookbook) has to be a recipe made in heaven. And when you put it with a cup of coffee or milk, it makes a GREAT breakfast! (Oh yeah, we totally justify that--I mean it has protein and oatmeal!) Nobody makes these cookies better than our friend, Beth Menne... She and her sister-in-law, Vonda, came ALL the way to Little Rock just to hand deliver these to us! Well, we did have a nice visit too... thank you ladies for bringing a little bit of heaven to us! Tom and I have had maybe 20 already today. :)

Vonda, me and Beth... fun time, good laughs and GREAT cookies!

This morning was another 4am-5am-6am-7am-8am day... Lots of nurse and doctor visits. But I did get to see our specialist today (he was the 8am visit). He clarified a little more about the MRI saying that the results didn't show anything, but that doesn't rule out that we might still have some placenta growth into the uterus. He said we won't know for sure until we go into surgery. I love how he tells me things plainly... the MRI results were good, but we do need to anticipate this type of placenta growth (due to the fact that there is not any endometrial lining in the uterus because of the ablation procedure). He reiterated that he still wants Adalynn and I to "hang out" until 34 weeks--that's a little over two more weeks!

Tom, Crist and Ty were here today. We didn't do much (there isn't much to do), but just knowing they were here with me, made it feel so much more like home. DaneO is at a Heritage football camp this week--I miss that boy, but am so happy he's getting to take part in that!

You know, I've mentioned all the goodies that come my way, and even try to include pictures... but I haven't yet shared about all the wonderfully beautiful cards, postcards and letters that are sent here! I forgot how much fun it was getting "snail mail" in this age of technology. How thoughtful, truly. Thank you, friends, for putting your heart on paper... for penning the well wishes and wonderful scriptures... Here are some of the encouraging words: (this is only a selection)

"The Lord gives strength to his people; the Lord blesses his people with peace." Psalm 29:11 (on a postcard from Dan Morrissey--yes, Dan, you picked some dandy postcards! :))

"His compasssions never fail. They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness." Lam. 3:22, 23 (from a card from Suzy Bell--thank you sweet Suzy for this reminder!)

"May God cheer your heart and lift your spirit and may he shower rainbows and blessings upon you." (in a card from a wonderful Apples of Gold sister, Michelle Roberts)

"Father, thank You for protecting me and my baby and for our good health. Thank You for hearing and answering my prayers. Amen" (a personal prayer from another Apples of Gold sister, Pam Long)

"He tends his flock like a shepherd; He gathers His lambs in His arms; and carries them close to His heart; He gently leads those that have young." Isaiah 40:11 (from Ellen Alexander, another Apples of Gold friend and sister--oh what a comforting image!)

"It's the moments that seem the darkest when the light of God's love shines the brightest--The moments we feel furthest away, we are wrapped in His arms the tightest..." (in a card from Adalynn's grandparents and my wonderful mother and father-in-law)

These intentional thoughts and actions are MUCH appreciated. I can't even begin to describe how this blanket of love feels wrapped around our family...